catching-up session with gfs yday. so everybody had their stories to tell. their stories are all about their bgrs. ;( i have no bf to speak off! hurr. we had gd yummi-licious food yday. the best part was the cakes at the Red Lounge. ok i call it the coka cola cabin.

i presumed pretty ladies get better treatment? look! the cakes are much more nicely decorated than when i went without dressing up. hmm...

btw, sem got tricked. she thought i was attached. sem, u're punked! ahha

only today when i did my personal accounts then i realised i'd spent 100 odd bucks within 2 weeks. and that's excluding shopping. my money was spent on food and the birthday presents for the FOUR birthday kids this month. urg urg!! i seriously need to starve already. no more family feast, sakae buffet or whatsoever. water water water!!

ok i've been studying econs for the past 2 hrs. i'm STUDYING not READING ok. so bored now. my classmates are all going for the econs talk at nus. i chose not to go cos 8 bucks is not cheap! i would steal some notes from them after the talk. tat's a smarter way eh. i bet if i went i wouldnt have paid attention to the lecturers too. haha.

ok back to revision now.

i wanna give up.

i know i speak without thinking.

im sorry if i said hurtful words.

i wanna go away.

it was outing with ph today. not bad, at least we catched up a little. was supposed to stay out longer with em but xiaohui and vincent were waiting for me to get prezzie for edmond so i had to leave. ):

but we photo-ed!

it was difficult to get edmond's prezzie! first we need to consider everybody's financial situation. then we had think of what style suits him and wad's available in store. we shopped till we were hungry and we went kfc to have our FAMILY FEAST. ok vincent xiaohui and i are one happy family. one Husband and two Wives. haha. then nigel came halfway and we walked around taka for awhile before heading to far east. we finally saw this nike bag which was rather plain and we think it suits edmond the most. so we bought it at no hesitation!! haha. finally finally finally. we were all dead tired. though we're tired it WAS WORTH IT. (waikim's pet phrase) ahha

im in a crisis. i cant stop thinking about how i'd lose out to everyone in every single matter. call me a perfectionist. call me.. whatever. i've an inferiority complex. i cant help it. i've tried so much to change it. i cant correct this mindset as much as i want to. yea i act all gay cheery and bubbly. im jus gonna disguise it all.

i realised, it really doesnt pay to be nice to be everyone. i wonder often who's gonna be there for me when i need help? shove me aside when gd things happen. rope me in when there're bad things. who gives the most ? i dun like being taken advantaged of. i think the male gender has more of loyalty to speak of. girls? bitching around is all we know. quit it.

things haven been going rather smooth for me. take yesterday, i'd stained my skirt. thanks to sem she helped me with the mess. i'd wanted to leave sch without taking GP mock but i stayed in the end. i shouldnt have stayed. it was as good as not doing it. i didnt know what the ack i was writing thoughout in all my essay and answers.

cant wait for things to get better.....

jus out of the blue, i'd thought of the ideal house to own. den it led me to think about high class living. then... i'm proud to show you, what high class living is all about. it's The Sail Hotel. man, u gotta appreciate my taste for such stuff. burj al arab built on the sea. i think it's one of the most magnificent structure ever on earth!

somebody please bring me to dubai! i'd do anything, i'll even die to go!

had a night at meritus mandarin's mezebar celebrating jeriel's bday! haha it was like their first time drinking in a bar. ahha noobs! lol but everyone goes thru this phase haha so.. u guys have learnt something! vincent was spoiler thou, we wanted to go for more drinks but he had to be home cos he was tired. wa lau, we could have much more fun if we drank! it was fun cos i get to hear guys' dirty talk from the HORSE'S mouth! haha.

drinking is gd. stress relieving. nope im not addicted. drinking preps me up for the upcoming struggle in sch. way to go!