the weekend is here again. the always long awaited time of the week.

so i got back math test results today. disappointingly i only managed a B grade. just like how jen is unhappy with her A, im unhappy with my B. sigh. jen, we could be doing so much better right!! c'mon it was really so doable. and i seem to have been plagued by carelessness these few days. this is so shit whenever it happens.

im not looking forward to receive econs after hearing the average score for mcq is 9/20. it sucks. this just shows how much our school mates have been doing. gosh. thankfully i can blame it on the fact that bball is one reason for my decline in grades. (i'm shit)

yday, lao heng revealed to some of us on who will be in the team. haha. im gonna keep the rest in suspense. so fun. and compy will start in two weeks time!! i want to miss lessons. ahha. staying in sch is boring. going to sbc is exciting.

my toes are cramping now. 5 hrs of training today!!! im blessed that it wasnt some intensive training though. climbing stairs was fun anyways. haha. can disturb the neighbourhood with our " Jia you" s!!

and tml is working day!! back at auntie jean's shop to help out. wonder what new stocks she has.. heh heh. i missed that oil painting.. =(

tml night will be gathering. missed all my darlings. :)

for now, it's time to do some hw.

im so very pleased to have survived thru block test. no more late nights for the time being. ah huh :)


BUT haha results...they are gonna be sucky i know. hahah here come my Fs

den, i heard about our lots.. we're playing against rj pj and aj. hohoho. this is the greatest gift. we're suely gonna be kicked out of first round! yay. can step down soon! hhaha.

im tired and hungry. i'l choose sleep over eating.

good night.

suddenly this thought came to me: i want to quit school and start working. yea u all adults out there say work involves officepolitics and whatsoever which are so much more stressful than school. yeah i know all that fussy bosses u have to put up with is so unbearable. but be it stress on academics or work , they're still stress righttt? then i thought again, i could slog so hard but it may all come to nought if i just get killed out there by a car accident or be bogged with some terminal disease.

even if we get to live to a ripe old age of 80 plus, why should we learn all these life lessons when eventually life comes to an end? unless u're one who believes in after-life, the deeds u do in ur present life could be considerable to path ur after life. u know,good and nice ppl go heaven while the baddies go to hell. wth.. anyway i think it's kinda ridiculous. well up to u all to assume now.

right now i'd just wanna stay in my sanctuary ( in my dreams ) which i havent visited for a while. wont wednesday just come sooner? i don't wanna know my results however.

dratz, now i realise how much time i'm left with to cover the remaining test topics. i haven touched on econs yet. i'm probably gonna give it up.

i haven recovered my energy ever since camp ended. fatigue on my muscles. uh huh, i've been having spasms these days. so u can see how exhaustive this holiday is to me. all u non-ballers are definitely having an easy time out there. pls sympathise with me alright. and sorry guys if i've been complaining too much abt my aches.. u know i just cant stop whining for a day. i must say im fortunate to have friends who hear me lashing. thanks friends!!

anyhow, we lost to vjc yday. well it's kinda expected since they're the hot favourite to be the A div champs this year. but it's funny why they'd wanna play with us given the large disparity of standard. it was good experience. they made me realise how lousy my stamina is. :( still it was glad to hear lao heng said i played welll yday. :)

ms chua said she's gonna draw lots on monday! which means comp will start sooner than expected. well i certainly hope comp will start in 2 weeks time. it's not as if we 'll improve a lot given more time to train. our attitude is juz plain sucky. (ermm even mine)

p.s there's finally someone attractive in school. makes my time going to school more enjoyable. hehe. "You"

math math math.. physics physics physics.. econs econs econs... juz wish it would end soon.too much to handle

tml's THE camp. i hear we may well be slping on the hard ground since it's only a night. and ms chua is taking us for the training sessions ... * scary !... we have 3 training sessions in a day. but i'm looking forward to the match on thurs morn. hehs. MJ MJ .. we'll beat u!

now, i wanna be invisible. this facade to hide my pain and sorrow. non -existence rules.

it's an ____ day. i duno which word suits the blank best.

987 crew came down and .. yea... like what jen says... PCCG is finnaly going OUR way. ahhas. at least it aint some boring talks again. carrie chong's really preeeetty! her bod is damn nice... streamlined!! urg...

training was okay... lao heng seemed to be in high spirits today cos he tried to be funny all the time while he was teaching. and he gave nick name to us all . training sessions are getting more enjoyable.. more 5 on 5s ...less PT. well i hope it stays this way when i return to training next week. heh.

mr teo was telling us abt the universities intake. yeahh i suppose he was trying to make us WAKE UP to reality and work really hard. so i searched for the news article and guess what............. i saw my ex-tuition teacher's pic in that article!! he looks different.. so not his usual boyish/beng style when he wears that commercial suit. and im envying the fact that he's earning more than 5 K now! urrgg!!

mom told me the son of her colleague did pretty well in his A's. so his results were like 4 distinctions and GP A2. wth!! then the army offered him scholarship. gosh. i felt like killing him . can't he be less of a genius ??!@!#$

today is such MOTIVATIONAL to me lah. i can't stand it. i really want my distinctions toooo...and with mr teo's rubbing in on our attitude, it did make me want to do something abt my results now...

MUG time.

addicted to caffeine!!! almost 3 beverages in a day which contains caffeine. how am i gonna survive w/out them ? my teh - bing , teh , kopi ,nescafe regular... yea yea... these are what i drink to keep myself awake alive.

two more days of school and the term comes to an end. yeah thinking back it's fast. and only about a week to block test which i so have not prepared for. but well i've been consistent in doing tutorials. hope that helps. and i'll tell u that block test will be a breeze.

the next thing i can't wait to get over and done with is tournaments!! u could have heard this a thousand times...........

Rule No. 1 : Mic is always right.

Rule No. 2 : If she is wrong, please refer to Rule No. 1

haha. my bro thought of this. it's weird, the way he wants me to torment him with my totalitarian behaviour.

this very moment i'm craving for werther's original. yummy caramel. toffee sweets will do too. hehe. :)

4.52 am into sunday.

i must have been slouching too much.there's a pain in my stomach. ouch.

im all alone now.

i have pre-monday blues.

i must say i really hate mugging.

i've become a caffeine addict.

they'll get me my desired DISTINCTIONS.

at the expense of eyebags and dark eye rings.

i've become ugly.

but still, i wunt wanna pile my work up.

back to mugging now.

-_-"

reflections. it is important. u may be surprised that i say this when i dun practise what i preach. truth is i do reflect but i still stand by my beliefs and actions cos i am sure of what im doing and since i've done it , i can't regret. in ur eyes i may be wrong. if u judge me as irrational, im fine with it. well everyone is entitled to their opinion right? while i think differently from you, it could be that we are standing at different perspectives and understanding things in different angle. so please, if i do offend u with my persistence and insisting nature, u guys better forgive me. :)
(p.s im not telling this to anyone in particular but just fyi. )

new blogskin. this is meaningful. chose this because , hey i do see light in what i wanna be already. now there are a few considerations. to sign on and join the navy. u guys must be thinking im crazy to do so because there's one month of BMT to fulfil. i have doubts about my ability to endure through it also. but it isn't like i have to complete the 2 years NS right.the next consideration would be to take up manufacturing engineering in UNSW when the new campus starts in 2007. i think there's a career for this in china and aust. well they say the min criteria to get in is CCD. im optimistic abt that.

i thought of my future whilst i was in the train on my way home. silently, i daydreamed abt myself driving my own car, being all independent. then i also saw myself travelling down the streets of australia,dressed in smart office wear, somewhat a career woman. then the conclusion is that , these are the steps for me to achieve my dream of MAKING BIG MONEY.ultimately, what i want is to live a life of luxury and independence. notice that i didn't mention a man? hmmm...

updates on today:

math test. it was okay. manageable. much better than the last test.

fun part : 'excursion' to suntec. not the career fair , but at the military sector. shots with the green leafy army guys. meiyi thought they were mannequins donned with leafs and green camouflage paint lah. dang~ but i admit i thought it was fake at first too. hehehe. then meiyi seemed like she got the shock of her life when the army man raised his arm.

oh well, jen and i seemed to be the most enthusiastic and best partners at the military fair.we bombarded the navy staff with questions and thanks to that we got a goodie bag . mingbang cheewee and the rest were jealous so they tried to get their hands on it by asking many many questions but only got an orange buoyant keychain. wahahah.

at carl's jr burger. many many jokes. k i laughed till my jaw dropped. E-field, e-learning...hahaha.

stupid keynes.. likes to fiddle with his fingers.. flicking at everyone's flesh. pain lor!

finally home sweet home at 9.45 .. in time to catch the last epidsode of the 9 pm show on channel 8 ( what's the name of the show man).

we're into the 3rd month of sch term already. another week or so will be holidays. alrights, let's admit it.. we'll be busy muggin for the lame block test . especially since mr teo has a problem with our class's attitude.

apparently the teachers from our class has been upping their standards and request. i duno if it's a gd sign. it means we'll be busier with more tutorials to do but at the same time can we handle the overload? we'll see in the results ....

so today, i've got AO chinese results. well well, it was gd. though only a b3 .. im pleased enough. then again i came to realise each and everyone has different expectations . i suppose some ppl get satiated easily not because they dun have ambitions, just that they set very realistic goals and meeting it would be easy. our hardwork is nt ALWAYS for us/ppl to see. if putting in 100% effort doesn't give u back 100% of what u expect to deserve, just blame it on bad luck. so to speak... life's not always fair.