im experiencing insecurities right now. i just want to shed from my other shell and run away .. be invisible. i dunt want anybody to give a hoot. i want others to be oblivious towards me. i hate scrutiny! i know some ppl out there have been commenting, pin-pointing. i dunt like to guess what u're thinking. if that ever happens, i'll just think of u saying negative stuff about me. right im so self-conscious. i dunt know why either. i only want to be the best. it's like nothing is ever enough.

it's becos of insecurities that i dun want to find solace in anybody. trust is missing? who knows the real me? i want to be defiant too. in this world im just trying to live up to everyone's expectations. u'll see me breaking down on day. i cant take up all of these responsibilities.who can i really tell my problems to? u cant understand

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