lately i've been hanging out with nigel and junxian. they've introduced most of their colleagues to me today! they really make me feel like a vip. haha. anyhow, i thought i was quite a spoiler today cos i left them halfway and headed home .

i feel unwell. unwell as in being sick and also depressed. i cant explain what exactly is making me tired. i've been having insomnia since two days back. my legs always feel tired in the middle of the night, so tired that i feel a strenuous stretch. there's pain. i dunt understand how i got it.

then i feel a yearn for something. that something is however undefined. i need that something. otherwise my mood will be so depleted. strange to say i cant figure out what this is too. i GUESS, it is concern and attention that i need. i may seem independent, self-reliant and happy-go-lucky, nevertheless theres always one low-peak moody period. even so i tell myself things will get better and be in high spirits again. i certainly hope it'll be SOON.

i so detest taking chinese exams now. i duno if i can pass! im worried for tml's paper. i dunt wanna screw it and do badly. im so hoping to stop chinese once and for all. i wanna quit doing chinese man...